The last two years of my life have been like one crazy whirl-wind. It was the best of times and it was the worst of times. To say that my life has changed would be an understatement, but if there is one thing that I know, it is that God is in control and He DOES know the plans He has for us.
Dave and I separated over two years ago, and I went from being a stay at home mother of three, to a working single mom of four in little over a few months. Going through a divorce changes how you look at yourself. I had to redefine everything I knew about who I was. I questioned everything...everything. I made mistakes, I learned lessons, and I grew as a person.I'd like to say that my relationship with God grew during this time, but if anything, I felt more lost than I have ever felt before in my life. One thing that did not change, was that God didn't lose sight of me, even when I lost sight of Him. Two years into the darkest time of my life I finally gave up trying to control what was happening and just begged God to help me. I realized that all I was doing was creating an even bigger mess than the one that was already there. Divorce is horrible thing..it can destroy you if you let it, and you are never the same after it is over.
God heard my cries though, He knew my heart, and brought a man into my life that accepted me for me,loved me despite my flaws, and who loved my children as if they were his own. Jeff is the most amazing person I have ever met. He was a single Dad of 6 beautiful children, and if anyone out there understood what it was like as a single parent, it was him. He makes me want to be a better parent. He has the patience of a saint, and he is probably on of the most caring people I have ever met. It would be hard NOT to love Jeff, and to say he swept me off my feet would be an understatement. So here I am....10 children later...amazingly happy and incredibly blessed..
